once again.

once again  forgot to tap out when alighted from the bus. once again disappointed. once again hurt. once again angry. once again damn tired. once again ignored. once again failed. once again doubted. once again gave up. once again received your grace. once again hear your voice. once again hang on. and the cycle goes on…

stand firm and not to give in to the world. have the God given confidence. God help me….

in the middle of the night while reading blogs…

screwed. screwed, i’m screwed. omg…. do not look upon others and be filled with jealousy. but instead, be filled with the love of God and be encouraged, be glad and honour your brothers and sisters. the grace of God triumph over your unworthiness. God, reign in my heart and my mind.

lovelovelove.

while my dad drive me to work today, God reminded me of this verse when i was staring out of the window, thinking about my past few days…
“If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing”
1 cor 13: 2

yea, i totally need to love my lg more. all the problems that i have, all the worries, are most probably the result of me not being loving enough to be patient, to forgive, to understand. I guess i need to talk to them more and keep myself updated of their lives. Expected too much from ppl is always my source of problem. God, help me to be less of a perfectionist but  more of having a spirit of excellence.

As i went to read up the verse, the following verse came up…

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.⁸Love never fails.
1 cor 13: 4-8

I shall not envy ppl of their talents. I shall not be self- seeking. I shall not be easily angered by people. and i definitely need to trust and have hope in people. Reason why i don’t believe that one day my lg will start on time and ppl will meet up on time is perhaps i haven’t love them enough. therefore i have no hope in them. wells…. it’s difficult for me to believe that ppl will change but when  i do not have faith and trust in them, it equates to me not beliving in the power of God. Not believing that God has the power to change them. Not beliving that God can change me. Lord, help me to see in potential in people. I need to pray and pray and pray and pray………. PRAY!

sound on sunday:

wa…. thank God i survivied today. i have no idea why everytime i wanna serve in hopekids, i will kena some illness. actually it’s only the 2nd time i serve. lol. but the first time i had stomach ache. today i kena fever. thank God for panadol. haha… today my mix is rather cuay but they say it’s good. so…. i shall just thank God for that and improve:D i need my mic allocation to be better. overall mix to be softer. more consistent vol. gd soundtrack. that’s about it i think. lol. and that’s quite a lot.  haha… i really do hope next time we have better equipments to do better stuff. and i need good sleep on sat to be awake on sun morning!! Lord give me discipline:)

Family better than friends?

hai….. i think i agree with the title. sometimes, we’re just so caught up with spending time with friends that we forget that most of the time and most probably, our parents and family members love us more than any of our friends, including lg members. so why is it so difficult to spend time with them? why is it that we rather hang out with friends than our family. perhaps they can’t communicate with us as well as our friends but i seriously think that we need to honor them. thank God for my family. though they are cheena and conservative, the love that they shower on me isn’t available anywhere else but at home. yea, i shall spend more time with them. i better help my grandma out with housework for CNY!:)

refreshed

he who refreshes others will himself be refreshed.
I experienced this today. thank God:) my God is an awesome God!!

why can’t ppl do things properly. rah!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m so angry that i’m going to explode soon.

OMG. sian…. why didn’t i pass the stupid BTT. hai…. i’m just going to wait for another month. after graduating from JC, i kinda forgot the feeling of failing something when you expect to pass. i can answer like 90% of the ques but i guess their expectations are just high. it wouldn’t be so sian if i don’t have to wait until the next month. rah… i guess i can’t make it in time anymore. in time to drive my lg ard before i transfer. ah wells….. too bad for them. it’s my goal to drive them ard before i go. like my gd-bye gift? i dk why i want that. seriously, i don’t know. maybe because i find it uber irritating to rush for last bus or last train. oh wells…. God bless me for the next test….

this is the first time i’m fasting from drama i guess. ah….. I wanna watch My Girl. Lee Dong Wook is uber handsome!!! he is jaw- drop good looking man! God’s creation is indeed awesome:D hahaha…. now i can’t watch my taiwan drama too. ah wells…. i jus realise ytd that i can only break fast when i’m in taiwan. joke. or maybe i’ll end it when i come back to s’pore. ah…… now i can only listen to songs. can’t watch my awesome shows. i think i better pass my dvd to amelia for her to watch first. haha… ah ja until 28th Feb!!!

when i’m about to lose it then i know that my God given chance is running out. I need to go all out now. time is ticking…

Potter’s hand

Beautiful Lord, wonderful saviour
I know for sure, all of my days are held in Your hands
Crafted into Your perfect plan
You gently call me, into Your presence
Guiding me by, Your Holy Spirit
Teach me dear Lord
To live all of my life through Your eyes

I‘m captured by, Your Holy calling
Set me apart I know You’re drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord I pray

Take me, Mold me
Use me, Fill me
I give my life to the Potter’s hands

Hold me, Guide me
Lead me, Walk beside me
I give my life to the Potter’s hand